I'm back in action!

Ok, so I know I have not done this blog thing in a while now..like almost a year. So, here I am. My last blog I had walked my first ever 5K, had lost 37 pounds, and was on my way to healthy! It has been a loooong year since then. It has been a year of hard work, working out, frustration regarding food (sounds crazy to some, but if you are a yo-yo dieter like I am, you know what I am talking about), lots of successes, some disappointments, and not to mention my kids growing up before my very eyes. It has been emotional, to say the least. Let's just skip the details and go straight to today! I am 90 pounds lighter than I was in Jan 2010, a bootcamp instructor, and working on my CPT. I have done a number of 5K's since then, an Adventure Race in Austin with a relay team of 5, and Urban Challenge Downtown Houston with my sister-in-law, and now have bigger goals I am ready to tackle this year. My first running 5k I did, my time was 44:15. This past weekend, I did a Run For Hope that supported Camp Hope for foster children and my PR time was 33:24!!! My goal was to be under 38 min. Sometimes I cannot believe it myself...I finally am becoming the wife, mom and person I wanted to be, both physically and spiritually. I could not have done this without borrowing strength from God, and a great support system of amazing friends that I met through Masterpiece.

My goal for this year is to do a 1/2 marathon in December by RunGirl. It is an all-girl 1/2 marathon and I am sooo excited. I have a few 5K's and a Beachpalooza in Galveston between now and then.

Ok, so I must admit, to my husband's dismay, I have found a new LOVE for shopping. To be able to walk into a clothing store (NOT a plus size shop) and pick up a size 8 and it fits, AMAZING! I felt so free when I cut up my Lane Bryant credit card....no need for that ANYMORE, EVER!!!!! I have never liked to shop, nothing fit, nothing looked good, I would walk out of that plus size department in tears! Tears of shame and doubt and embarassment! How did I get here!? A failed marriage? A divorce? Another rocky marriage? KIDS? Stress? Tired? What was going to keep being my excuse? ME! It was all me, my fault! So hard to face something you know to be true. So easy to stay in that place and complain, but not do anything about it. So easy to keep making excuses and being comfortable with being miserable and depressed! NOW, none of that even makes sense!!!! My only excuse is....there is NO EXCUSE! I feel I can do anything now, literally on top of the world. I stive to be the best example I can be for my kids and be sexy, yes I said it, SEXY again! I finally feel confident and TRULY comfortable with myself. NO MORE EXCUSES!

Ok, enough about me! lol Jake and Lauren are growing like weeds! WEEDS, I tell ya! And, yes, somedays I feel like the weeds are strangling me! LOL But amongst the weeds, are these two beautiful flowers blooming into little people. Jake and Lauren have my heart, all of it! They are such sweet little mixes of Mike and me. They keep me going, make me laugh, test my patience and perserverance, and most of all they hang in there with me, and still love me, when I make mistakes as a mom. There are some days that are great, and there are some days where I end up apologizing to them. I want to show my kids how they need to treat others, and how they deserve to be treated. Jake is now 3 1/2 and Lauren is 2! The time has gone by so fast with having two kids, and finding time for Mike and me is sometimees hard, but I know that it is all worth it.

There are so many things that bug me about this man, but so many MORE reasons why I love him. He supports me in everything I do, helps me think things through, and he can even make me laugh. And did I mention he is smokin' hot! lol Sorry, honey!